Don't believe what you see

It's a phrase I've gone by for awhile but have noticed recently that I do not follow it. I look in the mirror every day and criticize myself for gaining weight and not being slimed down. Granted I have not gained much weight, or it might simply be my woman figure decided to show now as I am getting older, (I am only 21.) Regardless, I find myself depressed daily because it's not what I want. I don't look at magazines and wish I were them on the cover because as a photographer I know how much those images are photoshopped and manipulated. I don't watch television and sulk about myself, I merely just what to change what I am. I do feel that one should accept who they are and take care of their body as it is theirs to live in for their life span, but on the other hand I don't believe that one should have that attitude and let oneself go saying "If I want to eat this its ok because it's apart of who I am and what I want." When I personally believe that you still have to take care of yourself to be who you are. We as humans did not evolve naturally to eat processed, preservative pumped, and chemical enhanced foods. Its just not natural. So I find this a problem when trying to eat healthy.

So I can go to the store and buy "healthy" items like salad, veggies, fruits, wheat bread, wheat or rice pasta, fish, things like that but under it all those items are still causing problems to my body and how it functions and digest things, because of all the preservatives that are in it. The only way I can eat those items and feel good about it (mentally and physically) if buy getting raw, living, or organic foods. To do that, I have to spend more money. Wouldn't you think that I would need to spend more money on the items that are processed and put through many cycles to finally make it to the market rather than food that its literally picked from the ground, a tree, or bush then washed off and trucked to the store? It's almost like a conspiracy theory or something, which makes me laugh to think about. (That the government might be making the preserved items cheaper to keep most of america buying them to make them dumber, less healthier, etc to take advantage of us all.) Possible, but who knows?

Anyways, back to topic of loving whom you are and taking care of yourself, I think that we would be happier or more satisfied with ourselves if we did eat healthy and took care of ourselves responsibly. Possibly entire raw food diets and popper exercise (none of this over exercise crap, 2 hours at the gym 6-7 days out of the week with running in the morning/evening. That's just insane.) So today I am starting a new diet, mainly raw food. As much as I can afford an get ahold of. I am also starting back at my old job which is more income than I was making, so hopefully this will help with my wants of a change in diet. I am not going to over exercise myself. I live on the 3rd floor in an apartment complex with two dogs that I take for 20 min walks about 4 times a day. I am forgetful of items I need when leaving the house, so there are times where I take those extra trips up and down the three flights of stairs. When I get the chance I will go to my apartment gym and do a little more exercise, but I am not going to force it and punish myself if I don't make it to it. There is no point. It's good to be positive about things and to keep a positive mind frame, otherwise one might feel like living is pointless unless you are what you see on the cover of whatever. Be happy to be yourself, because you can't be anyone else, so why waste time trying to be?

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